are people working for me REALLY working for me?

i seen that i had a missed call on my cell phone (which doesn't surprise me.. i always manage to accidentally turn the ringer off on my damn i-phone) from a 320 area code. i'm assuming that it was from my mom because she's one of the only other people who call me that have a 320 area code. she must be looking to get me to tell her that she can sell my van because she couldn't because it was under my grandma's name and my grandma had a lein on it- don't ask me how the hell that shit works? i don't know. i'm thinking that if she gets me to say that she can sell it, then it can be sold. i've made my decision and i'm going to be a difficult little bitch.. i don't want to sell that van until i get my license myself and my own vehicle of my choice.. although the only other alternative would be if i would have to trade the van in for a vehicle of my choice.. but i'm not sure if that's possible. i'm pretty sure it's a chevy van and i know that i do NOT want a chevy vehicle. i also do NOT want to sell my van because the holidays are coming up and that's the only way that my family (the part of the family that actually cares enough to make sure that i'm not alone during the holidays) can come and get me and my wheelchair (because the van has a wheelchair ramp in it). i think that my aunt debbie (who is also my grandma's sister) gets after my mom during the holidays, so that she makes an iniative to make sure that i'm not alone during the holidays. she shouldn't have to do this because she's my damn MOTHER and she should make sure that all of her fucking children are happy- regardless of their age or situation. whatever. that's why i'm trying to get the hell outta this fuckin state but i'm not sure if the people who i'm paying to do their fuckin jobs and get me outta this hell are even doing it because when i check up on them, they say to me, "WELL.. I'VE BEEN REALLY BUSY LATELY AND THE PAPERS ARE UNDER A BUNCH OF OTHER PAPERS ON MY DESK.." uh.. no. i DON'T pay for the papers that i give you to fill out for me, to be buried under a bunch of other fuckin papers. THEN we have the other person who claims that she's "helping" me and she tells me that her and that other lady (with the papers that i needed filled out and sent in, and the papers are buried under a bunch of other papers) are the only people "helping" me with my move to new york. my old independent living services worker and my new independent living services worker have also helped me with my move a little.. so don't get such a big head. what's more is that i went to the burnsville mall with an intention to go to dick's sporting goods and pick up a stefon diggs vikings jersey and i asked them how much it was and they told me that the plain jersey was $100 and the authorized jersey was $150.. i'm not even sure if he's a starter. i should've asked them how much peterson's jersey was but his jersey woulda more than likely costed more. now that i'm looking on the site, i think a youth jersey would probably fit me better than a regular men's jersey.. plus, it's cheaper. only $25.. but still cheaper.